its christmas eve and nana is thinking about you and the last time we it together. remember when nana's friend came over with a train for you to put around our tree. you loved it, you would turn it off and on just to watch it go round the tree and make noise. i miss you and your little voice your smile your curly hair those little arms giving me big hugs. i miss everything about you. i pray everyday for us to be together again soon. i love you bubba and you will always be nana's little man.
last night glen had to wrap the presents for me, all i could do was look at the tree and remember how much you loved christmas and watching you open everything. i never saw a child get so excited just opening presents and looking at the lights. remeber when we took you and lexi to look at the house that made the news and it scared you because of to much going on and you were sleepy. everyday someone tells me something they remember about you and how you always made everyone smile. you are such a blessing for me and i will always hold you in my heart .
MERRY CHRISTMAS TRENTON NANA LOVES YOU !!!
this morning when i woke up and was laying there looking at the door, i was thinking about all those mornings when you first learned to walk and run around. you would wake up in the morning and get out of your mommys bed and run down the hall to nana's room and you would try to climb up in my bed, you would beat your little hands on my bed to wake me up. i loved waking up and seeing your big blue eyes looking at me and that big smile. i would lift you up in my bed and you would give me a big hug. we would lay there and snuggle and pretend to hide from your mom. i miss those special moments bubba. i miss hearing you wiggling my door knob to get into my room.
i miss when i go into the basement hearing you little voice say nana where are you and then i would hear you running across the kitchen floor and coming down the steps to see what i was doing the in basement. i love you so much and you will always be in my heart and i wish you could be in my arms again. nana misses you so much and its so hard to be here without you.
well bubba you are always on my mind as always. there is a minute to go by that i not thinking of how much i love you and miss you. christmas is only a week away and i still cant be happy like others i see. i sit here everyday and remember you downstairs talking to me about the christmas tree and when i hung a little glass star on my tree how you told me that was patrick and i didnt know what you were talking about and you said duh nana, its patrick he's a starfish . the look on your face was priceless. sometimes i stop at the top of stairs and look at them remebering you and lexi and abby playing on the last year just few days before you left us. everything here reminds me so much of you and things we done together. your papa glen put the tree up this year, i just wasnt in the mood still and your cousins hannah and abby came over to decorate it. we all talked about you and then i hung your patrick on sponge bob on the tree. i miss you bubba so much and my life is so empty without you so please tell god you miss me and ask him if i can come to heaven anytime soon to be with you . nana loves you more .......no i love you more
today was really hard for nana i remember last year with you running around the house playing and laughing. i miss you so much and i just cant be happy without you here. you chasing alexis and being happy is what i miss, i miss my lil man
Then later on when we took the girls home went stopped by linda's to get your hair cut . you climbed up in the chair for her to cut your hair and looked at me and said nana hold my hand and i did. i was so proud of you sitting there not crying while she cut your hair. this was the first time you never cried . my lil man is growing up, thats what i was thinking at the time . you are and always will be nana's little man and i love with all my heart bubba. i pray we will be together soon, so tell god that nana is ready to come be with you . i miss you
