today i was looking through your pics (i do everyday) and realized how much that you and lexi loved each other. the smiles on both of your faces. you always wanted lexi to come over and play. you both made each other so happy and you never would fight, always playing together. you wanted to go ride the school bus just like lexi when she started school . if i couldnt get you to eat lexi would eat and then you would . i miss the two of you running around the house playing and laughing together.
i was at the store yesterday and saw this little boy with curly hair just like you and i stunned and had to just stare at him while he was riding on the motorcycle ride, it reminded me of you when you were playing the games and got on the motorcycle in the game room. everything around me always reminds me of something cute and wonderful about you. i miss you so much and dont know what to do without you. my life was to be spent watching you grow up and now i'm just lost without you bubba. i wish someone could tell me why this happened !!!!!!! you were such a beautiful littlle boy who was happy, healthy and so much to live for ...
i was thinking alot about you today bubba, zoie wanted to get up in the rocking chair with me. like you would do when you was little and we would rock to sleep. when you were a baby i would sit in the rocking chair by the window and rock you all day or evening long. your mom & me would make fun of each other because we would sit in the chair with you and we would fall alseep all the time. i miss you so much and am just lost without you .and remember i love you more, no i love you more bubba
i've been thinking about you and your birthday parties we gave you, the one thing that sticks in my head is the look on your face when you turned 2, it was so cute to see you standing there holding your little hand on your face just like you were shocked that all the presents were for you. today is jaydens 1st birthday and it just doesnt feel right being there without you. i miss you so much bubba and there's not a moment that goes by that i'm not thinking about you and how much i love you and need you in my life. nana will never be as happy as i was when you were here. you are so loved and missed so much and i always be only your nana.
i will hold you in my heart util when meet and hold each other again. love you more
i just wanted to let you know that tonight was the christmas dinner at grandma and grandpas house like we always did but it wasnt the same without you there. i could see your little smiling face in everything tonight and everywhere. as i looked at your cousins who used to play with you all night long. everytime i felt a tear coming on i would get up and walk around. i miss you so much, i can hear your voice in my heart and i just want to hold you so much. merry christmas my lil' man . I LOVE YOU MORE !!!!!!!!
